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Sunday, November 29, 2009

I should remember this

Fear Is So Yesterday

Fear is always counseling you against the perils of 'now' because of something that happened 'once before'.



--Robert Holden


Yesterday might be a nice place to visit, but only fear wants to live there. The next time fear calls out to you, Joanne, face it squarely and remind it gently that you no longer choose to live in the past and it can't live in the present. Then bless it and let it go.

May you always be aware that fear needs the past to survive.

And may you always be aware that you are loved beyond measure and a cherished blessing to me.

Until tomorrow,

May your day be filled
with all things good,

 





Saturday, November 28, 2009

Buteyko reigns!




Ling & I attended the Buteyko Breathing Reconditioning Program to help us with our allergic rhinitis and migraines. The method was developed by Dr. Konstantin Buteyko, a Russian respiratory physician, who discovered that the stresses of modern living have resulted in most of us chronically overbreathing. This creates imbalances in the Oxygen/Carbon Dioxide levels, causing reduced oxygen supply to the cells, and symptoms such as asthma, rhinitis, sleep disorders, anxiety disorders, coughing, etc. We attended five 2-hour workshops to learn the method from Jac Vidgen, an Australian Buteyko practitioner. After the last day of our classes, we had dinner at Sweet Inspiration on Katipunan with Ling's friends.

YouTube - Sade - King Of Sorrow




Angels walk amongst us

    Didn't think so until yesterday morning.

     That day, I finally found the the time to go to the National Kidney and Transplant Institute (NKTI) to have a mammogram done. Because I have postponed doing this for so long, I rushed to the hospital, mindless of the fact that I might not have enough money to pay for the medical procedure. This unfortunate situation, I realized only when I saw the ATM machine by the entrance of the hospital. But the anxious moment lasted only for a second because I thought I could always withdraw some money later.

     So after having my request processed, I proceeded to the machine only to find out it was off-line. The guard advised me to go to the Lung Canter in the adjacent building as there was another ATM machine there. It was quite a walk but I didn't mind just so I could have the mammogram that hour. To my horror, it was also off-line! So feeling so helpless but not hopeless, I went back to NKTI to check if they accepted credit card payments. No, cash basis only! So it was back to the reception area to inform them I was pulling out my request and would come back another time because I couldn't withdraw any money from the ATM machines to pay for the procedure.

    A lady lining up in the next window heard my predicament and offered to lend me the money. I was so surprised that I could only say it was a big amount of money. She answered by asking if I needed a thousand or two? Flabbergasted, I asked her if she was sure because she didn't know me at all. She said she was sure as she knew exactly what I was going through having had a similar experience before. Embarrassment must have radiated from my every pore but practical me decided to accept her offer. She handed me P1,000 without any fanfare much to the amusement of the lady handling my papers. When I was at the cashier, she even asked me if the money she gave me was enough. We exchanged names and numbers and that was that! I still couldn't believe this was happening to me.

     While waiting for my turn, I espied her seated by the Ultrasound section so  I handed over the P500  I had in my wallet and told her I would pay the other P500 soon.  While thanking her profusely for trusting me, I was called by the nurse for my procedure so I never got around to ask her how I would pay for the remaining amount.

      It was only later in the evening that she replied to my text messages. We made arrangements on how I would get the money to her but more important than that  we also got to talk a while on our landline phones exchanging details about our lives.

      In the midst of grayness in my life the past few weeks, she was a golden moment. She was a streak of color I needed to help make the feeling of desolation fade away. In her text message, she said she found a new friend. Yes, I did too and she was no less than in the person of an earth-bound Angel. Thank you so much, Jojie N. !

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

BLAME IT ON THE WORLD

     "I am two women: one wants to have all the joy, passion and adventure that life can give me. The other wants to be a slave to routine, to family life, to the things that can be planned and achieved. I'm a housewife and a prostitute, both of us living in the same body and doing battle with each other." 

  "The meeting of these two women is a game with serious risks. A divine dance. When we meet, we are two divine energies, two universes colliding. If the meeting is not carried out with due reverence, one universe destroys the other."

- From "Eleven Minutes" by Paul Coehlo

This explains why we are the way we are, sister! Blame it on Mama who was anything but a simple schoolteacher and housewife. Blame it on our St. Jo education which taught us right and wrong but also brought out the Artist in us. Blame it on our liberal UP education which opened our eyes to the countless possibilities the world can offer. Blame it on the men in our lives who have been nothing like the stereotypical male.

We are destined to struggle but eventually thrive in these two worlds. No choices need to be made. It just is!

Thank you, Steve!




Last Tuesday, November 10 2009, Jingle, Andong, Powie, and I distributed to the Grade 6 pupils of the General Roxas Elementary School the school supplies lovingly donated by Steve Lawie. With us was Ate Yangyang Lopez, Head of the Social Service Ministry of our parish, who coordinated with us and the principal to make this event possible. Thanks for your generous gift of time and resources , everyone!

A week of museum and gallery hopping




Vargas Museum, CCP Gallery, and Green Papaya

Friday, November 6, 2009

At the end of a full day's work




The CSSP Registration Assistants for the 2nd semester, 2009-2010 seem not to feel tired even after 4 days of stress and toil during registration. Buti pa sila! Hmmm, it must be my age!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

All Souls Day 2009




Loyola Memorial Park, Marikina

Steve from Melbourne




Powie's foster father during the "Days in the Diocese" part of World Youth Day 2008 was in town for a few days. Broke bread with him a couple of times. He was also able to hear mass at HFP and meet our parish priest (who was also with Powie during WYD).

Sunday, November 1, 2009

A scene from my 28-year marriage

J: I think she is finally leaving him. Because when she got back from her trip, her husband did not even show signs he missed her. Nothing. Why do you think her husband is unresponsive?
T: I don't know. There must be a reason.
J: Of course there's a reason. That's why I'm asking you.
T: Baka nagsawa na.... I don't know!
J: E ikaw, nagsawa ka na rin ba sa akin?
T: (With a chuckle)  Hindi a.
J: E bakit unresponsive ka rin sa akin?
T: Unresponsive ba ako?
J: Oo, parang magroommate na lang tayo.

(LONG SILENCE)

I get up from the dining table to go upstairs. He stays downstairs for a while.