Malapit na!

Just 9 more days till our departure for WYD. My head is spinning! Still so many details to take care of but with the Lord's grace, I know I will complete everything in His time!

Really, really

I really, really need to lose some weight! Especially around the middle. Otherwise, I will need to chuck all the contents of my closet to make room for a new wardrobe. Normally, that last thought should bring a smile to my face but only if I could afford it. And if the clothes were in my long-ago Size 8!     I really, really should try!

Lectory fashion

After wearing a white blouse and and a black skirt for Sunday mass the last 25 years, I couldn't find anything suitable in my closet this morning when I could wear something else aside from my lector's uniform. No appropriate Sunday wear. Only teachery stuff. Only week-end gear. I wonder what that says about me?

In preparation

All twisted up inside waiting for what may never come. In preparation for good-bye?

Seriously?

Seriously thinking of leaving something I've been doing the last 16 years. I'm just not as good at it as I try to be. I wonder if I'll be any better at something else though. 

Respect

I do not force my beliefs on anyone. But I wish that before unbelievers unleash their insults on religion, they should remember that for many, the church is not only an institution made up of nameless,faceless, and unthinking people. They are also made up of people like me who have been taught by our God and our religion to unselfishly serve and love their fellowmen. This is the creed I live by and try to teach by example those who are close to me.

Message from my body

Woke up early morning feeling like I had the flu... Sore and feverish body! Was it from dehydration from being under the sun and walking around in high-heeled shoes for almost 3 hours the day before? Or was it a message from my mind and body that I should give myself some rest from a stressful and largely thankless job?  

Too old

Sometimes I think I'm too old to be still weaving new dreams. I should just work on making the old ones come true!

Cognitive dissonance

Cognitive dissonance: When you can't decide which takes precedence - your work obligations or your family needs? The latter almost always wins the end, of course. But the mere process of having to make a choice leaves one exhausted!

Flit by

Sometimes one becomes reluctant to give in to sleep for fear that once you close your eyes, something that you have been desperately waiting for will flit by and think that you were never even there.

Which one?

I wonder whether calmness. restraint, boredom, predictability, silence, peace of mind, and contentment all occur in one continuum... and then excitement, novelty, impulsiveness, gaiety, irrationality, passion and discontent in another. If so, which one would you rather have? 

Sit quietly

"Sit quietly for now and cease your relentless participation. Watch what happens...Life continues to go on... why are you so sure that your micromanagement of every moment in this whole world is so essential? Why don't you let it be?"                                                                                            

 - From: Eat, Pray, Love                                                                                                         

by Elizabeth Gilbert

So sad

I am tired. I am sad. I'll miss you, Tita Lina! So much ...

Goddess daw

In a quiz which asks "Which ancient goddess are you"; this is what I got:                          

 Indo-Iranian Goddess Anahita of Water...      You are easygoing and open-minded, though passionate about your values. You have much integrity and resonate elegance and inner beauty. You are a deep thinker, caring and sensitive.   Wow, if only all of these were true! Hahaha!

Celdran

I would have been offended by Celdran's act if I were there! The mass in not only about the clergy presiding over an event. It is more about a community of the faithful coming together to worship God. If some people do not share in the belief that the mass is sacred, then they should at least respect our belief that it is so!

Sometimes I think "tagasalo" really means "tanga-salo". Hay, the story of my life! 

#Hate minutes

It is taking superhuman effort for me to work on the minutes of a meeting! Trudge on, sigh on... I have only 3 days left. 

Panaginip

Today, I pretended that I was a rich but lonely heiress. That I had everything that money could buy but yet I was all alone in this world. Hahaha! Only because when I was swimming  in the infinity pool of the gym, I had it all to myself. It was also as if I owned everything I could see from the all-glass wall of the penthouse where the pool was. Hay! Masarap managinip paminsan-minsan. 

Darwin come true

A few months ago, Darwin was just a glint in my eye, an exciting posiibility. And now, I'm here! It pays to work hard to make your dreams come true.