From the ashes of Multiply's "Joanne, by any other name" (2003) arise this space. Now, it houses my collection of significant pictures and angsty thoughts. It mirrors the dark and the light, the bumps and flights in my inner jouney!
Siguro pagod at sawa ka na. You have the intelligence, patience, right attitude, etc. for that job. Although, I still think that you should have been in theatre or broadcasting. he, he. he. :) You've been with the University since college except for that period where you worked elsewhere. You've reach that point where you probably need some kind of twist... or tweek to turn things around and make it exciting again. If your travels don't help, maybe you need a different job. Why don't you try the private industry? Perhaps you need a place where your contributions can be more appreciated. Or why don't you write a book. I'll buy it. Are you ready to retire? Probably not. Unless you have plans on what you want to do already. If you have the means to live the rest of your life. so be it and retire. Do that one thing (or more) that you've always wanted to do but couldn't. Or do something crazy and enjoy it. I've done a few crazy things in life. I've worked with several companies. But I'm not ready to retire yet. Maraming utang eh. And then the boys are still in college. And I think they'll be on an extended stay. Buhay America...mahirap na masaya din naman. Although, I think mas masaya pa din sa Pinas. Baka naman you're no longer challenge by your job....or you've reached a dead end. Mahirap nga 'yan. ....you need a new job. ...i don't know. Take care!
Hey! Matalino ka naman talaga, ah! Pagod : OO. Nagpapanggap : HINDI !!!! Examine the other issues that have made you tired and frustrated. I have a feeling that the reasons have nothing to do with you or maybe just a bit and you are taking too much responsibility upon yourself. I am just a text away if you need to talk.
Thanks for your concern and suggestions on how to pick myself up from this emotional slump! Yes, it must be pagod na ako in general and raring to do sometthing different and crazy, if possible. And it doesn't help that I have to plant both feet on the ground at this time. Mahirap nga ang buhay, di ba? Especially if you need to contribute to other people's survival!
As to the other issue - being in UP has always made me feel like I'm a small fish in a big sea. That is so because there are so many brilliant people here. Even students can be smarter than you! Younger colleagues are better teachers than you! I think most of us here have to always prove ourselves that we deserve to be part of the institution. Only a person with a humongous ego would believe that he or she is the best in what he or she is doing. There is just no space for mediocrity in UP!
Unfortunately, the ego I was born with has not been able to withstand the battering (self-inflicted, sometimes) it has been receiving lately. While there are psychic rewards which buoy you up when you feel like you're drowning, you can't help but think that maybe there's a place that's safer for your self-esteem!
I'm now savoring 3 days of alone time preparing for the new semester. I'll see how it will turn out. Maybe I'll fall in love with teaching again and do whatever it takes to stay in UP (Oh no, PhD!!!). Maybe I'll realize it was just an infatuation to begin with and that is why it no longer rocks my world! Maybe I'll win the Lotto which will free me to pursue an acting career or write that book, Jun. Maybe, maybe, maybe!
'Musta na! Heto, medyo nabuhay na naman. Been busy with my boys who have been giving me a lot of work and worries....considering na hindi na nga kami nagkikita at umaga ng umuuwi. Gee, you have to make an appointment to see them!
Also, buong araw na akong nakaharap sa computer at work kaya wala nang energy pang mag social media. Although, one of my co-workers always tell me about her facebook encounters. I don't know how she could find time to do it. You also lose your privacy with facebook. Me and my sister's identity were already stolen before kaya medyo ingat na.
So it looks like you've been writing books. Is that on Amazon? Good for you! I really think you'll be good in journalism or being a writer. And I see that you've been travelling more frequently and been busy with your various organizations. You've also grown your hair again. Hmmm....so what did your hubby say?
What's ISIP? Sounds like it's something about psychology. But you mentioned "that book" that you would probably write someday when you find the time. Hope I'm still able to read by that time.
I also bought $25 of lotto tickets here last week with a half-a-billion prize. Pero wala pa rin suwerte. We almost went to the Phil. last January, pero masyadong maraming obligasyon dito na hindi maiwanan. And then there are my boys...I wish my parents were still alive to give them the discipline that they put on me.
Hi there, Jun! Glad to hear from you again! Perfect ang timing mo para sa Easter. Para ka ngang nabuhay na uli! I know how life can get so busy over there. Years ago, when we would visit my sister in NY, I would have to do a lot of housework that I had to remind myself that I was on vacation. My kids were young then and needed constant supervision. So I can imagine just how tough it must be raising kids there!
I didn't rally write "that book" yet. I just co-edited ISIP which is a collection of studies presented in a conference which our organization, Pambansang Samahan sa Sikolohiyang Pilipino, sponsored. The 2nd book in the pictures, "Dadaanin", is a collection of 100 literary pieces, each one composed of only 100 words. I contributed 1 short story for that. And for the 3rd book, I contributed one chapter on "Pananagutan". The book was published by the People Management Association of the Philippines (PMAP). I really don't know if any of those books will be available through Amazon.
Yes, traveled a lot last year! Attended World Youth Day in Madrid with my kids and then we took a guided tour of some European cities. This year, wala muna siguro dahil depleted na ang resources ko. Hanggang Tagaytay na lang muna! If and when you get the chance to visit here, I should bring you to my favorite spots there.
My hair length changes with my moods and my emotional state. Since the last picture of me that shows me with longer hair, I've had it trimmed. I was tempted to have it cut short again but I chickened out! My hubby doesn't really mind what hair length I prefer. Siguro pag nagpakalbo ako, yon lang siya magugulat!
I think your kids will turn out alright just like you. You take care now!
One of my co-workers bought a property over there in Tagaytay. The house was also built already. Pero medyo niloko sila noong contractor. Anyway, I've seen a lot of nice pictures about Tagaytay. Siguro, you should buy a property there since you're there all the time. Tamnan mo narin ng santol at lanzones. he,he,he..
Too bad about your co-worker's plight! I hope I don't suffer the same fate with the place I'm paying for. Maybe it will be ready by the time you can take a holiday here with your kids!
Too bad about your co-worker's plight! I hope I don't suffer the same fate with the place I'm paying for. Maybe it will be ready by the time you can take a holiday here with your kids! You can stay there as my guest!
Siguro pagod at sawa ka na. You have the intelligence, patience, right attitude, etc. for that job. Although, I still think that you should have been in theatre or broadcasting. he, he. he. :)
ReplyDeleteYou've been with the University since college except for that period where you worked elsewhere. You've reach that point where you probably need some kind of twist... or tweek to turn things around and make it exciting again.
If your travels don't help, maybe you need a different job. Why don't you try the private industry? Perhaps you need a place where your contributions can be more appreciated. Or why don't you write a book. I'll buy it.
Are you ready to retire? Probably not. Unless you have plans on what you want to do already. If you have the means to live the rest of your life. so be it and retire. Do that one thing (or more) that you've always wanted to do but couldn't. Or do something crazy and enjoy it.
I've done a few crazy things in life. I've worked with several companies. But I'm not ready to retire yet. Maraming utang eh. And then the boys are still in college. And I think they'll be on an extended stay. Buhay America...mahirap na masaya din naman. Although, I think mas masaya pa din sa Pinas.
Baka naman you're no longer challenge by your job....or you've reached a dead end. Mahirap nga 'yan. ....you need a new job. ...i don't know.
Take care!
Hey! Matalino ka naman talaga, ah! Pagod : OO. Nagpapanggap : HINDI !!!! Examine the other issues that have made you tired and frustrated. I have a feeling that the reasons have nothing to do with you or maybe just a bit and you are taking too much responsibility upon yourself. I am just a text away if you need to talk.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your concern and suggestions on how to pick myself up from this emotional slump! Yes, it must be pagod na ako in general and raring to do sometthing different and crazy, if possible. And it doesn't help that I have to plant both feet on the ground at this time. Mahirap nga ang buhay, di ba? Especially if you need to contribute to other people's survival!
ReplyDeleteAs to the other issue - being in UP has always made me feel like I'm a small fish in a big sea. That is so because there are so many brilliant people here. Even students can be smarter than you! Younger colleagues are better teachers than you! I think most of us here have to always prove ourselves that we deserve to be part of the institution. Only a person with a humongous ego would believe that he or she is the best in what he or she is doing. There is just no space for mediocrity in UP!
Unfortunately, the ego I was born with has not been able to withstand the battering (self-inflicted, sometimes) it has been receiving lately. While there are psychic rewards
which buoy you up when you feel like you're drowning, you can't help but think that maybe there's a place that's safer for your self-esteem!
I'm now savoring 3 days of alone time preparing for the new semester. I'll see how it will turn out. Maybe I'll fall in love with teaching again and do whatever it takes to stay in UP (Oh no, PhD!!!). Maybe I'll realize it was just an infatuation to begin with and that is why it no longer rocks my world! Maybe I'll win the Lotto which will free me to pursue an acting career or write that book, Jun. Maybe, maybe, maybe!
'Musta na! Heto, medyo nabuhay na naman. Been busy with my boys who have been giving me a lot of work and worries....considering na hindi na nga kami nagkikita at umaga ng umuuwi. Gee, you have to make an appointment to see them!
ReplyDeleteAlso, buong araw na akong nakaharap sa computer at work kaya wala nang energy pang mag social media. Although, one of my co-workers always tell me about her facebook encounters. I don't know how she could find time to do it. You also lose your privacy with facebook. Me and my sister's identity were already stolen before kaya medyo ingat na.
So it looks like you've been writing books. Is that on Amazon? Good for you! I really think you'll be good in journalism or being a writer. And I see that you've been travelling more frequently and been busy with your various organizations. You've also grown your hair again. Hmmm....so what did your hubby say?
What's ISIP? Sounds like it's something about psychology. But you mentioned "that book" that you would probably write someday when you find the time. Hope I'm still able to read by that time.
I also bought $25 of lotto tickets here last week with a half-a-billion prize. Pero wala pa rin suwerte. We almost went to the Phil. last January, pero masyadong maraming obligasyon dito na hindi maiwanan. And then there are my boys...I wish my parents were still alive to give them the discipline that they put on me.
Ok,....later.
Hi there, Jun! Glad to hear from you again! Perfect ang timing mo para sa Easter. Para ka ngang nabuhay na uli! I know how life can get so busy over there. Years ago, when we would visit my sister in NY, I would have to do a lot of housework that I had to remind myself that I was on vacation. My kids were young then and needed constant supervision. So I can imagine just how tough it must be raising kids there!
ReplyDeleteI didn't rally write "that book" yet. I just co-edited ISIP which is a collection of studies presented in a conference which our organization, Pambansang Samahan sa Sikolohiyang Pilipino, sponsored. The 2nd book in the pictures, "Dadaanin", is a collection of 100 literary pieces, each one composed of only 100 words. I contributed 1 short story for that. And for the 3rd book, I contributed one chapter on "Pananagutan". The book was published by the People Management Association of the Philippines (PMAP). I really don't know if any of those books will be available through Amazon.
Yes, traveled a lot last year! Attended World Youth Day in Madrid with my kids and then we took a guided tour of some European cities. This year, wala muna siguro dahil depleted na ang resources ko. Hanggang Tagaytay na lang muna! If and when you get the chance to visit here, I should bring you to my favorite spots there.
My hair length changes with my moods and my emotional state. Since the last picture of me that shows me with longer hair, I've had it trimmed. I was tempted to have it cut short again but I chickened out! My hubby doesn't really mind what hair length I prefer. Siguro pag nagpakalbo ako, yon lang siya magugulat!
I think your kids will turn out alright just like you. You take care now!
One of my co-workers bought a property over there in Tagaytay. The house was also built already. Pero medyo niloko sila noong contractor. Anyway, I've seen a lot of nice pictures about Tagaytay. Siguro, you should buy a property there since you're there all the time. Tamnan mo narin ng santol at lanzones. he,he,he..
ReplyDeleteToo bad about your co-worker's plight! I hope I don't suffer the same fate with the place I'm paying for. Maybe it will be ready by the time you can take a holiday here with your kids!
ReplyDeleteToo bad about your co-worker's plight! I hope I don't suffer the same fate with the place I'm paying for. Maybe it will be ready by the time you can take a holiday here with your kids! You can stay there as my guest!
ReplyDelete